Imperfection

You plan every details, hoping your plan would succeed and brings joy to everyone. You tried so hard to be the perfect one, to fulfil every wishes but in the end people misunderstand you and misjudge you. I'm sorry, i understand now, there is no perfect man, only perfect intentions and i cherish every of your sincere thought.

To The Older Me

During my birthday, i'm always reminded of the certain someone. This year was no exception but this time it felt so surreal. I know now that it is gone. I'm moving forward and i wish for the more peaceful mind of me, stronger me and the braver me towards the older me. Happy Birthday Carol! Thanks to all my crazy friends and families, i'm contented and grateful for their existence in my life :)

Numb

I'm tired of having to wait for the time to come
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes

Every step that I take i doubt whether it is a mistake again

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want you do
Is to make it happen and not empty promises

Behind the facade

Being a middle person and an outsider can be so tiring and frustrating. Caught in between guilt, doubt, respect and frustration enhanced the pressure in her brain. All she needed was some time to clear her heavy heart but there was no time as she had to face them soon. Swallowing all her emotions, she consoled others and convinced them she was fine. Once the door was closed behind her, tear drops kept falling down her cheek. All she could do was to hide her sobbings by turning on the tap water. It wouldn't stop till she doesn't even know the reason behind the tears again.

"Tears are words the heart can't express"

"Tears are the safety valve of the heart when too much pressure is laid on it"

"Perhaps our eyes need to be washed by our tears, so that we can see life with a clearer view again"

She just needed rest and be oblivious of all the misery that is surrounding her. She doesn't know why she let things affect her this time. Maybe she was tired of having to depend on others. She just needed some sleep. Everything will be fine again.

Alone on the street

Night walk wouldn't seem so scary if the world is a safer place to live without the need to warn people of snatch thief or rapists. Somehow today as i was walking on the roadside back to my cousin's place, i looked around and told myself all is well. I began to relax and felt at ease. I was actually enjoying the walk, look up the sky and immersed myself with the beauty of the clouds and stars. Suddenly, a motorbike zoomed past me and all my senses of defence kicked back in. Clutching my bag tight and walking at a faster pace. Oh yes, if only the world was not tainted with crimes. My night would have been perfect....