The one that got away

Letting it go now :)

of choices and chances

Amazing stuff i stumble upon:

When we meet the right person to love, when we're at the right place at the right time, that's chance.

When you meet someone you're attracted to, that's not a choice. That's chance.

Being caught up in a moment (and there's a lot of couples who get together because of this) is not a choice. That's also a chance.

The difference is what happens afterwards.

When will you take that infatuation, that crush, that mind-blowing attraction to the next level?

That's when all sanity goes back, you sit down and contemplate whether you want to make this into a concrete relationship or just a fling.

If you decide to love a person, even with his faults, that's not a chance. That's choice.

When you choose to be with a person, no matter what, that's choice.

Even if you know there are many people out there who are more attractive, smarter, and richer than your mate, and yet, you decide to love your mate just the same, that's choice.

Infatuation, crushes, attraction comes to us by chance.

But true love that lasts is truly a choice. A choice that we make.

Regarding soul mates, there's a beautiful movie quote that I believe is so true about this: Fate brings you together, but it's still up to you to make it happen.
I do believe that soul mates do exist.

That there is truly someone made for you.

But it's still up to you to make the choice if you're going to do something about it or not.

We may meet our soul mates by chance, but loving and staying with our soul mate is still a choice we have to make.

We came to the world not by finding someone perfect to love...BUT to learn how to love an imperfect person perfectly..

Being strong

Maybe is the lack of sleep,

Maybe is the constant emotional struggle,

Maybe i'm really tired of everything,

Tonight, i no longer put up a smile.

I love you

I love you,
Not only for what you are,
But for what I am
When I am with you.
I love you,
Not only for what
You have made of yourself,
But for what
You are making of me.
I love you
For the part of me
That you bring out;
I love you
For putting your hand
Into my heaped-up heart
And passing over
All the foolish, weak things
That you can’t help
Dimly seeing there,
And for drawing out
Into the light
All the beautiful belongings
That no one else had looked
Quite far enough to find.
I love you because you
Are helping me to make
Of the lumber of my life
Not a tavern
But a temple;
Out of the works
Of my every day
Not a reproach
But a song.
I love you
Because you have done
More than any creed
Could have done
To make me good
And more than any fate
Could have done
To make me happy.
You have done it
Without a touch,
Without a word,
Without a sign.
You have done it
By being yourself.
Perhaps that is what
Being a friend means,
After all.” - Roy Croft

me, Me, ME!!!

Don't i know you?
Yes you do. That's you when you were five. Fearless, limitless, pure love, innocent, infinitely wise and of boundless potential and beautifully connected with the unseen hand that created the universe.
Buckle up! We going for a crazy ride. You gonna know who you are again.

Here i come Final Year!

Let the happiness seep in

Hannah said to Rafe

"Secret to happiness is merely to stop trying. You can't go looking for happiness as if it were a shoe u lost under the bed. You already have it. You just have to let yourself be"

I have to stop worrying myself and just let it seep in.

When life pushes you

Lately, i've been listening to real life stories on how life can really pushes you to dead end till nothing matters anymore. The latest fashion in town, the megasales, the juicy gossips of celebrities, your decision on what kind of hairstyle to change, some party celebration, your daily rumbles, youtube videos and the list goes on seems so insignificant. That are exactly some of the stuff i see on my facebook Home. While i admire and envy some people who is living in total peacefulness with non to worry except for little things compared to much bigger problem of a certain individual having, i can't help but pulled to this sorrowful area of a particular person.

All the negative energy absorbed quickly to every part and particles of my already half troubled heart. I lost the balance between the material world which has turn mankind snobbish and ever competitive and the plain simple happiness in this life. What is the right path?

I wish to turn a frown into a smile.

I wish to understand the cycle of life.

I wish a great mass of positive energy would force its way to eliminate all the negative cells that has almost turn cancerous in me.

Greedy me in Pasar Malam

Pasar malam reminds me of all the good food that i love and also at the same time food forbid by my parents when i was young. Nevertheless, staying here in my cousin's place, SS2 Pasar Malam is definitely my favourite place. There's so much variety of food that it is almost as good as jonker street or even petaling street.

In one night, i ate a slice taiwanese pizza, curry chicken potato puff, corn in cup, curry fishballs stick, herbal egg, longan pudding, one bowl of asam laksa and coconut drink and i could just continue gobble more if time permits. My tummy was literally speaking to me, asking me to keep continue sending all those food down. I don't mind having a dinner date in pasar malam for a change some time. It satisfies my tummy than high class restaurant at times. yummsssssss!

My dream :)

To go soon

Royal Selangor Visitor Centre

To have in the future

The ToyWatch XL

Choices and chances

An article that i stumbled upon tonight and potrayed exactly what i felt like for the past few days. Coincidently it relates to my blog's name as well

"As we go throughout life, it can sometimes seem mysterious to think how we arrived at our current place. Each person's life represents the aggregate total of all their decisions and the influence of chance. For many of us, it can be tempting to blame 'fate' or the actions of other people for the fact that their life has not turned out the way that they had previously imagined it would. For many people, this has resulted in a slowly burning internal anger against their circumstances. The enduring problem created by this phenomenon is that it constructs a mental barrier that prevents people from taking the actions that are necessary to improve their circumstances.

The first and most important insight that must precede any sustainable improvement in our life situation is the realization that we are fully responsible for the course of our life, and our decisions are the means by which we navigate the river of chance. It is most certainly true that we cannot control chance. There will always be events and circumstances in our life and the world at large that are out of our control. The secret to influencing your future lies in understanding that there is no point in worrying about things that we cannot control and focusing all of our attention on the decisions and events that we can influence."

I must be proactive and i have to take hold of my life. I can change the situation. I have to believe in myself.

The joy of giving

Everyone loves a little suprise, a small gift and presents are always welcome. Nevertheless, the joy of giving are equally pleasant and sometimes is better to be on the giving side than to be on the receiving side. A smile of your loved ones and people you cared is much more valuable and meaningful than getting what you want at times. The moment that person screamed with joy and thank you, that is when you know you did all thing right. Birthdays and Christmas are the perfect time to feel the joy of giving and receiving. Having experienced both joyous moment lately, i would say, the joy of giving socores it better.

Today in the midst of all the joy, that's when i realized my handphone was missing. What a great turnout! Really hoping i left it in my office and not anywhere else. My handphone gift was not even a year old, he should not be short-lived. I have many dreams yet to accomplished with him.

Imperfection

You plan every details, hoping your plan would succeed and brings joy to everyone. You tried so hard to be the perfect one, to fulfil every wishes but in the end people misunderstand you and misjudge you. I'm sorry, i understand now, there is no perfect man, only perfect intentions and i cherish every of your sincere thought.

To The Older Me

During my birthday, i'm always reminded of the certain someone. This year was no exception but this time it felt so surreal. I know now that it is gone. I'm moving forward and i wish for the more peaceful mind of me, stronger me and the braver me towards the older me. Happy Birthday Carol! Thanks to all my crazy friends and families, i'm contented and grateful for their existence in my life :)

Numb

I'm tired of having to wait for the time to come
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes

Every step that I take i doubt whether it is a mistake again

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want you do
Is to make it happen and not empty promises

Behind the facade

Being a middle person and an outsider can be so tiring and frustrating. Caught in between guilt, doubt, respect and frustration enhanced the pressure in her brain. All she needed was some time to clear her heavy heart but there was no time as she had to face them soon. Swallowing all her emotions, she consoled others and convinced them she was fine. Once the door was closed behind her, tear drops kept falling down her cheek. All she could do was to hide her sobbings by turning on the tap water. It wouldn't stop till she doesn't even know the reason behind the tears again.

"Tears are words the heart can't express"

"Tears are the safety valve of the heart when too much pressure is laid on it"

"Perhaps our eyes need to be washed by our tears, so that we can see life with a clearer view again"

She just needed rest and be oblivious of all the misery that is surrounding her. She doesn't know why she let things affect her this time. Maybe she was tired of having to depend on others. She just needed some sleep. Everything will be fine again.

Alone on the street

Night walk wouldn't seem so scary if the world is a safer place to live without the need to warn people of snatch thief or rapists. Somehow today as i was walking on the roadside back to my cousin's place, i looked around and told myself all is well. I began to relax and felt at ease. I was actually enjoying the walk, look up the sky and immersed myself with the beauty of the clouds and stars. Suddenly, a motorbike zoomed past me and all my senses of defence kicked back in. Clutching my bag tight and walking at a faster pace. Oh yes, if only the world was not tainted with crimes. My night would have been perfect....

The mermaid theory

When you are friends with a guy/girl who is attached, never let your manatee image turn into a mermaid (from himym) or my own version for guy - never let the toad be the prince. You have to keep your guard and make sure that the image remains a manatee. That's when you know you can continue to be friends. Otherwise, you can see complicated status on fb ;)

"V" for Vendetta

The best part that get to me :

"Artists used lies to tell the truth about politicians that used them to cover the truth up"

My amusement ;)

Today, I felt like i was sixteen again when i was having fun in the arcade. I used to go to "The Wonderland" (if i remember correctly) in Mahkota Parade with my friends. The spontaneous stop by in arcade today was just the thing i need. I tried few different games in half an hour. In such short period of time i was laughing my head off, sweaty from all the excitement and beaming in happiness. Although i was there for a short while, but it sure felt very long. It was total exam distress. It was the best RM5 that i spent for that half an hour and the only relief and relax moment that i ever felt in this exam month. Yea, other than ECO and April Fool month, it happened to be my exam month too. Glad that exams are finally over. So, hell ya, quality time beats the hell out of quantity time and i don't need so much money to make me happy. I just need some friends who can enjoy this simple thing and have fun with me.

These are my favourites; i called them "my old friend amusement":

Hit the crocodile game

(best to play when you are frust or need to lose a temper)

Daytona

(played the most during my school time)

Spot the difference

(My all time fav)

Shooting game 

 (thrilling - tried two different kind today, one of them was kinda scary)

APRIL GREEN

Whenever i see the month april on my calendar, the first thing pop up in my mind - here comes April FOOL.

Well, there's something i didn't know till now that April is also the ECO- month. GO GREEN!!

This year has been practically a green year for me because i've been having lots of input on going green. In conference, talks, shows on tv, people around me, my studies revolve around it and almost what i see and talk seems to relate back to green. It starts to really opened up my mind. In fact, i probably be on my journey to do a green project soon.

In relation to that, my college is constantly having no water. First thought in my mind, blame my college, Zaba. I've just realise my perception was wrong all this while. It wasn't because of the construction or the management of my college but it was my university management. Why my college having more water problem than the rest? Just found out that it has something to do with our location apparently. Am i to blame the university now? No, we are having more serious problem than that. Looking at previous record, i think we are having water shortage crisis in the country. So, not the university, gotta look back at the state management and the problem our state is facing. Though, i yet to find out the exact problem that caused this water shortage, but something hit me real hard today. What a shallow thinking i had previously. I was looking at things on the surface and blaming without finding out the real reason.

That makes me back to square one. I gotta be more eco-friendly. The earth is going down. Water crisis is not something to be underestimated.

GO GREEN!