Behind the facade

Being a middle person and an outsider can be so tiring and frustrating. Caught in between guilt, doubt, respect and frustration enhanced the pressure in her brain. All she needed was some time to clear her heavy heart but there was no time as she had to face them soon. Swallowing all her emotions, she consoled others and convinced them she was fine. Once the door was closed behind her, tear drops kept falling down her cheek. All she could do was to hide her sobbings by turning on the tap water. It wouldn't stop till she doesn't even know the reason behind the tears again.

"Tears are words the heart can't express"

"Tears are the safety valve of the heart when too much pressure is laid on it"

"Perhaps our eyes need to be washed by our tears, so that we can see life with a clearer view again"

She just needed rest and be oblivious of all the misery that is surrounding her. She doesn't know why she let things affect her this time. Maybe she was tired of having to depend on others. She just needed some sleep. Everything will be fine again.

Alone on the street

Night walk wouldn't seem so scary if the world is a safer place to live without the need to warn people of snatch thief or rapists. Somehow today as i was walking on the roadside back to my cousin's place, i looked around and told myself all is well. I began to relax and felt at ease. I was actually enjoying the walk, look up the sky and immersed myself with the beauty of the clouds and stars. Suddenly, a motorbike zoomed past me and all my senses of defence kicked back in. Clutching my bag tight and walking at a faster pace. Oh yes, if only the world was not tainted with crimes. My night would have been perfect....

The mermaid theory

When you are friends with a guy/girl who is attached, never let your manatee image turn into a mermaid (from himym) or my own version for guy - never let the toad be the prince. You have to keep your guard and make sure that the image remains a manatee. That's when you know you can continue to be friends. Otherwise, you can see complicated status on fb ;)

"V" for Vendetta

The best part that get to me :

"Artists used lies to tell the truth about politicians that used them to cover the truth up"

My amusement ;)

Today, I felt like i was sixteen again when i was having fun in the arcade. I used to go to "The Wonderland" (if i remember correctly) in Mahkota Parade with my friends. The spontaneous stop by in arcade today was just the thing i need. I tried few different games in half an hour. In such short period of time i was laughing my head off, sweaty from all the excitement and beaming in happiness. Although i was there for a short while, but it sure felt very long. It was total exam distress. It was the best RM5 that i spent for that half an hour and the only relief and relax moment that i ever felt in this exam month. Yea, other than ECO and April Fool month, it happened to be my exam month too. Glad that exams are finally over. So, hell ya, quality time beats the hell out of quantity time and i don't need so much money to make me happy. I just need some friends who can enjoy this simple thing and have fun with me.

These are my favourites; i called them "my old friend amusement":

Hit the crocodile game

(best to play when you are frust or need to lose a temper)

Daytona

(played the most during my school time)

Spot the difference

(My all time fav)

Shooting game 

 (thrilling - tried two different kind today, one of them was kinda scary)

APRIL GREEN

Whenever i see the month april on my calendar, the first thing pop up in my mind - here comes April FOOL.

Well, there's something i didn't know till now that April is also the ECO- month. GO GREEN!!

This year has been practically a green year for me because i've been having lots of input on going green. In conference, talks, shows on tv, people around me, my studies revolve around it and almost what i see and talk seems to relate back to green. It starts to really opened up my mind. In fact, i probably be on my journey to do a green project soon.

In relation to that, my college is constantly having no water. First thought in my mind, blame my college, Zaba. I've just realise my perception was wrong all this while. It wasn't because of the construction or the management of my college but it was my university management. Why my college having more water problem than the rest? Just found out that it has something to do with our location apparently. Am i to blame the university now? No, we are having more serious problem than that. Looking at previous record, i think we are having water shortage crisis in the country. So, not the university, gotta look back at the state management and the problem our state is facing. Though, i yet to find out the exact problem that caused this water shortage, but something hit me real hard today. What a shallow thinking i had previously. I was looking at things on the surface and blaming without finding out the real reason.

That makes me back to square one. I gotta be more eco-friendly. The earth is going down. Water crisis is not something to be underestimated.

GO GREEN!

When your plan fails

Love the quote "When you fail to plan means you are planning to fail". Then again, life ain't that simple.

In life, you can plan all you want but sometimes, the plan never work the way you wanted it. You can't fight the inevitable, the unforseen circumstances. It would be harder when more people are involve in the plan cos now, not only the plan depended on you but others as well. So, the plan falls apart when one failed to do their part. I guess having a plan and not work out is not as bad as not having a plan because you actually did tried your best. Imagine, dying because of a plan that failed and dying because you don't have a plan. The former sounds better right? Of cos, provided the plan was for good intention. (oh gosh, my mind was actually working through all the loopholes of my sentence that would contradict myself - law influence, bummer) 

Back to the point, I would say, hmm God has his plan for us. So, when we failed one, we just have another exciting path to move on too. I know, this is so comforting words for myself. Well, i rather be optimistic than being pessimistic.